A visit to son

Hubby had to go out of town to a workshop. Granddaughter was visiting her mother at other mawmaw's. I was able to go to the visiting time for our son. I was at the parking area when I realized I had to go back for the back of sweats I had left at the house. Thank goodness I was no later that I was. I was the 3rd to last person to register for a morning visit and I was there about 8:30. I got in at 10. I passed the time by reading a John Grisham novel. There are all types of people there in the crowded waiting area. Mostly women. Mostly black. Lots of people were turned away today, told to come back for the noon visiting time. When I finally got in, he was looking ill. Had a cough, sounded congested and sinusy. He had been to medic call and was taking something for sinus but you evidently have to be pretty ill to actually go to the doctor. I suggested he ask for medic call again. He thanked me for the sweats. They keep t pretty cold in there all the time. He is easily chilled & doesn't like it cold. So I know he doesn't feel well. It causes me quite a bit of anxiety to think that he will need care that he is not going to get, especially regarding his mental health. He says people have been waiting 4 months to go to the doctor. Yes, I know that if he had been compliant with his regimen he might not be in this mess but that is a moot point. He wanted to know if we knew anything about how long he might be in or anything about drug court yet. I told him that the judge told his dad he would tell us something within a week, so we should know something soon. He was despondent about not knowing what would happen next and about how bad things were in there. He said there were a bunch of bad gansters in there who were jumping on people for little reason. One person had been cut up recently. He doesn't think he can stay out of trouble until April. He wishes he could just get his sentence if he's not going to get drug court. I told him the Judge talked more about drug court than anything else and that he talked about rolling all the charges into one court date. There is no bible study going on, just a lot of hating. THere are not many white people at all, which is not something he has said much before. Someone he knows pretty well has just come in so maybe that will help. He is very depressed, looked like he would cry. Looked desperate. I hated seeing him like that. It caused me quite a bit of anxiety and sadness and worry. I tried to tell him only he could change his life to stay out of the situation in the future and only he could change how it was affecting him now. He said he new it but that it didn't look good right now that it was hard. I can only imagine.