Decisions

I took my 24 year old son to the hospital today, 2 hours away,,,and left him there. This was not easy for me to do. THis is his third and hopefully last chemo treatment. His father has been with him during his previous two treatments, but school has started and his dad is in a new teaching position this year and should not miss school so early in the year. My son has said that he would rather have me at home with his 5 year old daughter and that staying up there the whole time would be too hard on me. I am not in the best of health, blah blah. I have to agree with him on both counts. But it does not help my feelings of just leaving him there. He is a grown man, yes. I am a control freak, yes. I want to help and fix everything, yes. So leaving him there without doing anything makes me want to pull my hair out. Not that I could do much other than go get him interesting things to eat.