mawmaw's moments

Saturday, July 19, 2008

chemo is yucky

OK, I always knew it was true, but I can not tell you for sure that chemo is yucky. The effects I mean. My son, 24, is soooo friggin tired he doesn't even want to watch TV, This from a TV addict. He is also nauseated in the early morning. He looks like a raccoon, meaning that he has these big dark circles under his eyes. and he sighs. He stays covered up with a soft cotton sheet most of the time that he is in the recliner. He sometimes trades the recliner for his bed. He doesn't even want his dog in his lap. I hope he can make it through the rest of the treatments without giving up.

Saturday, July 05, 2008

chemo starts next week

OK I am stressed about this chemo. I am torn between being there helping him get through what ever happens and being here working and taking care of the girl. I only have a few paid days stored up at the moment and I need to hold on to them in case I need them for the next time he gets the 5 days of chemo or something else. My husband's work will start again soon after the second 5 days of chemo so he will be pretty much out of the rotation. Our son is stressed about the chemo too. How it will affect him and so forth. What's going to happen etc. And he has not been taking his antidepressants, so he is digging himself a hole that will hard to get out of. I am having a hard time focusing on this one day at a time. I am obsessing.