Decisions

I took my 24 year old son to the hospital today, 2 hours away,,,and left him there. This was not easy for me to do. THis is his third and hopefully last chemo treatment. His father has been with him during his previous two treatments, but school has started and his dad is in a new teaching position this year and should not miss school so early in the year. My son has said that he would rather have me at home with his 5 year old daughter and that staying up there the whole time would be too hard on me. I am not in the best of health, blah blah. I have to agree with him on both counts. But it does not help my feelings of just leaving him there. He is a grown man, yes. I am a control freak, yes. I want to help and fix everything, yes. So leaving him there without doing anything makes me want to pull my hair out. Not that I could do much other than go get him interesting things to eat.

Birthday time

School is about to start, but in the mean time it's birthday time. My granddaughter will be 5. Amazing, 5 years old. I don't see how she can grow up so fast. She is too sweet and innocent to keep growing up. No telling what lies ahead of her that I won't be able to ward off or protect her from. I hope she will always believe that she can come to us with anything.

We are having a gymnastics party. She loves to go to this place and play like a wild woman until time to have cake, then she tolerates the lighting of the candles and passing around the cake and ice cream. She can tolerate a few gifts being opened, espeically if hers is first, which she generally asks the birthday child to open first. Then she has had enough of the official party and wants to go back to the playing part. She is exhausted when it is over and pleased as punch.

Can't wait for her to have her own party there. She is so excited. We have an Aerial pinata and we will have an Aerial cake. What could be better.